Support letter

Posted in Life/Stories on November 25, 2009 by lspray

The following is my support letter for my DTS in Belize. If I have your address this letter may arrive in your mailbox in a couple of days. No matter how you come upon it, I would appreciate if you took a moment to read it. Thanks. -Luke

Dear Friends and Family,
As some of you may know, I have been accepted to a Discipleship Training School in Belize starting on January 5th of 2010. I have been meaning to write you this letter for some time because I’d like to share a bit about what this trip is, and why I feel it’s so important.

Two summers ago, after I got back from Africa, I did an internship at Youth With A Mission(YWAM) in San Francisco’s Tenderloin neighborhood. The Tenderloin is the city’s poorest, grittiest, and in many ways it’s worst neighborhood. My job was working with teams of high school students that came through to experience mission work in a new way. I guided them through the neighborhoods and gave them a taste of the ministry that YWAM did in the area.

The time I spent working in San Francisco drastically changed the way I viewed and experienced Church, Christianity, and life. The people I worked with had a profound effect on me. The staff at YWAM challenged me to go deeper in my relationship with God than ever before. They we’re the type of people that I wanted to become. They followed Jesus the way I wanted to, and they continue to shape the way I follow Jesus today.

God is now calling me to pursue a Discipleship Training School(DTS) though YWAM. The school consists of an initial three months in a classroom setting. There are numerous guest speakers, discussions, and book reports. The next phase is a two month outreach, this time will consist of taking the things that have been previously learned, and then implementing it in real world situations.

The final phase of my DTS is an extensive internship that focuses on leadership. This internship phase is unique to the Belize base, and is why I chose this location. The internship would provide me with an opportunity to take the things I have learned and experienced and translate them into something that is meaningful and beneficial to others, as well as giving me a clearer picture of the direction I want my life to take.

I am asking you to prayerfully consider joining my financial support team by helping me reach the required goal of $8,000. The money raised will cover tuition, rent, food, travel, and insurance.

Without your support none of this is possible. Thank you for simply taking the time to read this letter. It was your support that allowed me to go to Africa two summers ago, and I am forever grateful to God for His provision through you.

Please feel free to call me at any time at 909-289-3655, or email me at Lukespray@gmail.com, I would love to tell you more about my upcoming journey. If you’re thinking about supporting me, you can send me a check at the address below. No matter how much you’re able to give, you’re participation brings me that much closer to doing something meaningful, and for that I cannot thank you enough. For more information on ways to support, please visit the link below.

In Christ,
Luke Spray2815 N D st.
San Bernardino
CA, 92405

1hundredproject.wordpress.com

Dear Jesus,

Posted in Life/Stories on November 12, 2009 by lspray

I could really use some help.

Amen.

Alleyways.

Posted in Life/Stories on November 4, 2009 by lspray

4063476300_80b586546b_bThis is weird to say, but I love alleyways.

I always have. In a world where things are constantly fixed and updated to make them look better, we tend to end up with a seemingly fake world.

Alleyways are authentic. They are the parts of cities that just…are.

I was recently lucky enough to be a part of http://iliveheresf.blogspot.com/

I’ve been reading “I live here:SF” for quite awhile now, and I had always thought about participating, I thought it was a really cool idea, and I loved reading about the people that were featured on it.

When I created 1hundredproject, I realized that being a part of “I live here:SF” would be a good way to get the word out (I know, I know, shameless self promotion)

So I shot off an email to Julie (aka Tangobaby of http://tangobaby2.blogspot.com/), the creator of “I live here: SF” and luckily she wasn’t too picky about subjects for her project!

So we met up last week in my neighborhood and did a little photo shoot. I had never done a photo shoot before and was glad I got to do it with Julie. She made the afternoon into a nice conversation and walk that just happened to have a camera following along, and for that I was grateful.

Some of my photo shoot ended up being done on a friends rooftop, but my original plan was to shoot in the cool little backdrops that alleyways provide. I guess I was trying to show myself as authentic as the alleyways that I love. I hope that people find “my story” authentic, because I want them to find me and my project to be authentic. I strive to be authentic.

One of the things I liked about Julie and her project was that is spawned from an authentic desire to learn how to photograph people, and to hear their stories. She had this cool little idea, and she ran with it. It pulled me in, along with many others, and has even been featured in The Chronicle. Not many people can say that about their little blog projects.

I hope that you check out the cool and authentic work that Julie is doing.

I hope that you check out my attempts to be authentic and raise money.

But maybe most importantly, I hope that you come to find authentic desires and pursuits and passions within your own life.

…Damn that was corny, but it was authentic. I promise.

Where All We Had Was Laughter

Posted in Life/Stories on November 3, 2009 by lspray

I went to visit a friend of mine in prison last week.

It was the first time I had ever been to prison.

I don’t know what to say now. I didn’t know what to say then.

Its hard to find meaningful words when the situation is deserving of them.

So we sat there and laughed, about all the stupid things we used to laugh at when we were high school kids who didn’t have to worry about careers or life in prison.

It’s crazy how one small decision can change things so much.

Acceptance and Uncharted Waters

Posted in Life/Stories on October 22, 2009 by lspray

6a00d834515fca69e200e54f23c8698833-800wiAs some of you may already know, I got accepted to the Discipleship Training School in Belize.

You can read about it and support me here: http://1hundredproject.wordpress.com/

I can honestly say i haven’t been this stressed in a very, very long time.

All I can do at this point is just hope and pray and trust that the funds come in.

And thats not easy.

I can trust God with lots of things. Girls. Food. Shelter.

But that is because I’ve had positive experiences with those things in the past.

…Not so much with raising money though.

I could write a whole lot about those last three lines, but I wont.

What I will say is that  in the past two months, I’ve been blessed with awesome new roommates, a wonderful lady, and freebee’s that have seemingly materialized out of thin air.

(I mean seriously, how often does a $500 keyboard appear on your doorstep?)

My point is that God has provided those things into my life (Thank God, because I needed them)

All I can do now is trust that God will provide the supporters as well…

…and thats not easy.

I typed and retyped sentence after sentence here. I don’t know what else to write. I would just ask that you take a second to check out my other website. Thanks.

Luke

http://1hundredproject.wordpress.com/

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Posted in Life/Stories on October 7, 2009 by lspray

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“Do we know what life is outside of our convenient Lexus cages?”

-Jon Foreman

Donald Miller uses an illustration in his new book about a movie, and in this movie there is a guy, and this guy really wants a new Volvo. So he takes some extra shifts at work. He spends a little less, saves a little more, and at the end of the movie, do you know what happens? That guy gets himself new Volvo.

How cheated would you feel if you watched a movie and that was the story?

The point is that most of us live these types of stories everyday. Honestly, that thought has been driving me crazy.

Next year I might go live on a boat in a foreign country. Here’s why:

I’ve had an internal problem lately. I just want to scream sometimes because I feel like my life is just a never ending to-do list. Quite honestly, I get kinda bored of my own life. I started this post off with the Jon Foreman quote because it’s a question I ask myself often. I definitely do not have a Lexus, but my life can become a comfortable little cage. I ride the same bus routes, over and over. I frequent the same coffee shops, over and over. I say the same jokes. over. and. over.

I think it’s just that I’ve seen how big the world is. I don’t want to be confined to my cage, especially since the door is now open…

With California’s lovely budget cuts, SF state is not allowing any transfers for spring 2010. That wasn’t exactly welcome news, considering the fact that I’m almost done with my GE requirements and was planning on going to state in spring 2010.

So I began to realized that (whether i liked it or not) I was going to have a semester off. So I started thinking of things I wanted to do. I mean, I’m 20 years old, I can do anything. So I started talking to some people I respect and some people who are well connected, hoping to get some ideas.

I want to do something challenging. Something that would stretch me and amaze me. Something worth writing home about.

In my last post I mentioned my conversation with Rick and my lack of reaction to the rape. San Francisco has a well documented underground sex slave trade. It operates out of hard-to-prosecute massage parlors. Many of those parlors are in my neighborhood. I used to think about it more when I first moved into my apartment. It made me sad, angry even. Nowadays I walk past the same massage parlors at midnight without so much as a second thought. I’ve got Coldplay in my ears and Taco Bell in my hand. What else do I need?

Is my conscious that glazed over? Am I just oblivious? Why are my reactions to things that matter so messed up?

Because I’ve noticed beautiful women since like, what? 5th grade? And I still notice them just as much as I did when I was 11. So why does it take less than a year for me to practically forget about the tragedy’s that play out in my neighborhood on a nightly basis?

I don’t want to live in a cage. I don’t want to live a glazed moral existence.

So I talked, and I thought, and I prayed, and I stressed, and then, I applied. I’ll write more about it if I get accepted (and unfortunately I will probably ask for your money as well) to the Discipleship Training School on Catamarans in Belize.

I just refuse to live out an oddly comfortable existence. I don’t think we were meant to live like that. I don’t think we want to live like that. But boy it sure is comfortable huh?

My friend Stephanie likes to use the term “wanderlust”. I’m not sure if that’s a real word. But it sure sounds good. I’m not sure if I have wanderlust, but I do have a lust for an adventure, for a life worth talking about.

And frankly, the story about the Volvo, or even the Lexus doesn’t seem like it’s worth writing home about. So why do we keep pretending like it is?

Response: What I learned over my summer vacation

Posted in Life/Stories, The Open Road on September 22, 2009 by lspray

nycsunset_tysonSummer vacation was great. Life threw itself at me, or I threw myself at it, and the question is, how did I react?

Most of summer focused on a three week period where I saw Coldplay, went to NYC, traveled the east coast, and then saw The Fray.

(If you don’t read anything else, read the story of our first night in DC)

The rest of this might be kind of long. I really try not to talk about my life just for the sake of talking about my life, because then it just feels like I’m bragging, like one long facebook status where I get to say “Hey world! Look at me!” So I’ll try to context what I saw within what I learned. ‘Try’ being the key word there.

Speaking of what I saw, I tried for a good couple of hours in class last week to upload this pictures of our trip that were on my phone. For one reason or another, it didn’t work. So I’ll give it another shot tomorrow, (what else am I going to do in class? listen?) and eventually I will get all the pictures from Caleb.

Back to our trip,

I knew this summer would be different then last summer. Last summer I was dirt poor, living out of a duffel bag, had none of my old friends, and basically spent the entire time living to work (and loving it) whereas this summer, I had money, a great apartment, great friends to spend time with, and was working to live. And live we did.

After spending the first month of summer working at saving money, summer finally got underway with an a Coldplay concert. The band ended up coming up to the grass and playing a couple of songs (including a cover of ‘Billy Jean’) just a couple of feet away from us. Not a bad start to our vacation.

The next day, me, TJ, and Caleb got up and boarded a plane for NYC. The only thing I remember from the plane ride is that they didn’t serve us food, and the first thing I remember thinking about New York was, “Where can I get some pizza?” We ended up spending about four days in the city. In that time, we were lucky enough to stay at my friend Ryan Larette’s apartment in New Jersey. I have never been so content sleeping on the floor. Ryan is an engineer at a music studio in Manhattan, and one of the best moments of our trip was when Ryan granted me some late night studio time to record a rap song. For some reason I was REALLY nervous before this. but, in the end, life goal: Check. Thank’s entirely to him, it didn’t sound half bad.

We definitely hit all the tourist spots in the city, and thanks to my friend Kate Mckinniss, we got to hit up alot of the local spots too. We got on the late show, saw the presidents motorcade, and even braved the projects as we searched for Rucker Park. My favorite part of the city (and of the trip) was the Staten Island Ferry, we got to see the city and the Statue of Liberty at dusk, it was almost surreal. It’s one of those moments that I can’t explain well, but will always remember.

From there we boarded an unmarked bus that was headed for DC. I would be lying if I said I never wondered if the driver was driving us all into the woods to kill us. I mean, common, how can you get away with charging only $20 for a 4 hour bus ride? And the driver just stuffed the cash in his pockets, i mean, how sketchy is that? I ended up forgetting about how sketchy the bus ride was thanks to a lovely lady named Tess. You see, like most buses, Our’s only had rows of two, and with three guys, that meant one of us had to sit alone. A position I gladly volunteered for when Tess got on the bus. None of this really matters except to say thanks to Tess, not only for putting up with me the entire bus ride, but also for bringing us cupcakes the next night in DC.

When people ask me about DC, I tell them it’s kind of like the grand canyon, it’s one of those things that everyone should see, but once you see it, you kind of go “Ok, sooo, is there anything else?” Cool to see, but once you’ve seen it, you’ve seen it. So we only stayed two nights, but that was partly for another reason…

Which leads us to what is probably the best story from the trip.

Our first night in DC, we got off the sketchy bus at about 10pm, said goodbye to Tess, and went looking for a cheap hotel room. One would think that this wouldn’t be so hard, except for the fact that DC recently passed a law stating that you had to be 21 to rent a room (So I can kill myself with smoking, kill other people with guns, but can’t put a roof over my head for a night? Amazing.) So we went searching frantically to all the hotels in the area…trying to find ANYTHING. around midnight, when it became clear that we weren’t finding anything, and while TJ was trying to haggle with the girl at the front desk of the Hyatt, I went exploring around the hotel. Now I’ve explored most of the big hotels here in SF, and one thing I’ve learned is that there is ALWAYS empty rooms, you just have to know how to find them. So I went exploring and happened upon a dark, vacant conference room. So I got the guys, took them to the empty room and basically said that this was our best bet, and that we should just tough it out here for the night. TJ gave me a dismayed look, and Caleb basically shrugged his shoulders since he was all about saving money.

So I crawled under a table…and as we all picked out our spots and got ready for bed, some strange man wanders into our little pitch black room! Now we all saw him walk in, but he didn’t turn on the lights or anything, and since it was so dark (and the fact that I was under a table) none of us had any idea what he was doing. Thinking he was a security guard making rounds, I instinctively froze in some awkward twister position. Pretty soon this guy started making noises, like he was snorting cocaine or something. I’m not joking. Soon he left, and we never did figure out what the deal with that guy was, but it sure was interesting.

A little while later TJ walks out and just does not return. I didn’t know if he had gotten picked up by security or what, but i wasn’t going to risk my comfortable little spot to find out.

About 6AM, I wake up to Caleb nudging me and telling me he was going to the bathroom. Now I don’t really remember much after that, except for dozing off again, only to awake a couple of minutes later to Caleb returning, and then right behind him, a security guard!

She looks into the pitch black room, less than 10 feet from where im curled up under the table and asks, “Hey! who ARE you?” At this point I’m a little nervous and trying to hold back giggles as Caleb sheepishly responds, “Uhm, I’m a kid…” He packs up his stuff as she follows him out. Somehow I managed to hold back laughter the entire time, and a couple of minutes later I get a text from Caleb basically saying “get out.”  So I pack up and leave, only to get a text 30 seconds after I walk out saying, “Hey, can you get my beanie?” So I walk back toward the security guard who is now diligently guarding the level we had snuck into, Me (attempting to sweet talk this guard) “Hey, listen, I just dared my friend to sneak into that conference room, and he left his beanie there, its all my fault, and I’m really sorry, would it be ok if I went and got it for him since you kicked him out of the hotel?” To my surprise, She tells me to bring Caleb in to see her if he really wants his beanie.

Apparently he got lectured, and among other gems, was asked, “Why do you have a beanie? are you Muslim?” to which Caleb replied “uhm, no, I just like beanies.” Haha. Priceless.

Anyway, we met up with TJ about a half hour later…he couldn’t sleep and had ended up going to some 24 hour coffee shop. Figuring we needed showers, we sweet talked our way into “previewing” a gym. “previewing” meaning that we walked in, used their showers, then left. Ironically enough, we stayed at that same exact Hyatt the next night, which was the only night we paid for the entire trip. And the next morning we happened upon some AAA coupons for a complimentary breakfast buffet on the same exact floor of the conference room we had gotten kicked out of less than 28 hours earlier.

Figuring to save money, and anxious to get to our free condo in Florida, We decided to take a greyhound bus from DC all the way to St. Petersburg, FL. Now, to be clear, it was 24 straight hours on a greyhound bus (which would make a fantastic movie title by the way) Among other things that happened, they did pull the bus over at one point and arrested someone. Luckily it wasn’t the guy who happened to be sitting to me.

Florida was nice and relaxing, and aside from sleeping in everyday, visiting the beach and catching sea critters, we also snuck into warped tour.

While in Florida, I searched all over the condo we were staying at for laundry soap, and did not find it. So i went out and spent five bucks on some, only to come back and find some in the one place I did not look at the condo. I was genuinely frustrated.

Now here is what I learned over summer vacation, I learned about my reactions to… life. When I went home in May, something happened where I was inconvenienced, I don’t remember what it was, but I remember my Mom saying “You know how I know you’ve grown up? You used to throw a fit over things like this.” And while it was absolutely true, it did not register with me at all until I she said it.

My question is this, why do I react to things the way I do? Especially subconsciously. When we were in NYC, and I got the chance to record in the studio, I was genuinely nervous. Serious butterflies. But why?! Because I was going to put my pride out there as I tried to rap in front of my three friends who could care less? Why was I so nervous over that? In Florida, why was I pissed about spending $5 on laundry soap? It was five dollars! But I was genuinely frustrated, and I still haven’t figured out why.

On the other end of the spectrum, I called my friend Rick the other day, and as we got to talking, he mentioned he was dealing with alot, that a girl had gotten raped on campus the night before. Do you know what my response was? “Man, thats crazy. Good luck with that.” Then there was a silence…which I interrupted with “So how is your fantasy football team doing?”

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Damn. I really wish I had more appropriate responses.

Why would I get so nervous about rapping, so angry about laundry soap, and so nonchalant about rape? Something is seriously wrong there. Am I becoming numb to the real issues around me? I hope not.

In the weeks and months to come, I hope to improve my responses to things. To react better to the world and the problems around me. To live better through my responses to what life throws at me. Over summer vacation, I realized how I needed to respond to my world. Now I just need to learn it…

I am alive!

Posted in Life/Stories, The Open Road on September 5, 2009 by lspray

Sorry, I know I haven’t posted on here in awhile. I’m still alive and kickin, I just haven’t gotten around to writing in awhile. With the NYC trip…I realized that what I was writing was just chronicling my life, and I didn’t like that. Because when I see other people doing that, I really have no desire to read it, because it feels like its just boasting (Hey! This is me and here are the cool things I’m doing! Look! Look!) I have no real desire to read that type of stuff about other people, and my guess is that they have no desire to read that type of stuff about me.

The reason I write is to express in words how I interpret life and how it affects me. My goal is to write those things down in a coherent way that matters to me, and my hope is that it would matter to someone else, or at least get them thinking.

My life is going through a weird stage right now. kind of like a “What’s next?” stage. So if you could pray about whatever is next for me, I’d appreciate it. I’m pretty busy wish school and work right now, but I do want to write about the things I did this summer, the things I’m doing now, and the things I want to do in the future.

Stay tuned…

PS! I do want to upload a photo diary of the pictures that we took from our trip! so sometime in the near future I will get around to uploading that! For now, here is my best Salvador Dali impression from our time at the Dali museum in Florida:

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Photo diary

Posted in The Open Road on July 16, 2009 by lspray

We’ve been anywhere and everywhere. We just scored some tickets to be on letterman tonight, so we’re killing time before that. Maybe we’ll get to sit on the couch?! Anyways, here are some pics from the trip so far

Early morning

Posted in The Open Road on July 14, 2009 by lspray

So last night we saw Coldplay, which was on my list of “things to do before I die”, and let’s just say it definitely lived up to the hype. If I can figure out how to upload pictures from my phone, I’ll try to do it some justice, but let’s just say our seats were waaaaay in the back, like, we couldn’t even really see coldplay, which was disapointing, but the light show and all of the other crazy things coldplay does definitely made it worth it. So we’re standing there with 15,000 of our closest friends, and all of the sudden we see the spotlight move out into the crowd, and the band was making their way closer and closer to us, until they were standing like 50 feet away on a makeshift stage on the lawn. We were going wild because it was honestly the first glimpse of the band that we got all night. So we’re standing there, and then I realized we could get even closer if we really wanted. So I turned to Tj and I said, “fu&* it, let’s go!” and so we made our way even closer until we were only 20 feet away from the band right as they played a cover of “Billie Jean”. Obviously, that was the highlight of the night. Amazing.

Anyways, I appologize if all of the grammer and spelling is wrong. We got home at 3, woke up at 6, and now we’re sitting here waiting to board the plane to New York. Last night was a great way to start, actually, it was a perfect way to start our trip watching an amazing coldplay show with some amazing friends.

Oh and did I mention coldplay was only 20 feet away? We were close enough that Im sure Chris Martin could sense me being a little fanboy, kinda like Im doing right now.

Sorry if this blog is incohearant. Or if all the spelling is wrong.

Off to New York City!